Caught is coming soon! Would you like to start reading now?

Caught is coming soon! Would you like to start reading now?

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Well, if I’m being honest, I’m not 100 percent sure this is over just yet. But I’m getting closer.  Right now the issue is getting the cover art within the specifications required by CreateSpace.  Most of this issue is because I haven’t worked with this company before.  Still this is the way the cover will appear.  I’ll know more when I get the actual print here in the next few days.  I’ll keep everyone informed as I learn more. This is a process, and it’s not the writing or talking to people about writing that I enjoy. What I care about though is you all get the product for which you’ve been so patiently waiting.

To reward you all, I’m letting you all read the first chapter right here just to let you start the journey.    Please feel free to comment below.  I’ll offer another update as soon as I get the physical copy. If it looks good, we’re off and running.  If it doesn’t (I’m looking at you cursed Photoshop default save settings!) I’ll have to resubmit the cover and go from there. That shouldn’t delay the project too much longer.

Until then, please enjoy the first chapter to Caught:

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Chapter One

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Mother

Caden Carroll watched the blood seep through his fingers. He wanted to memorize every shade and hue of it and feel it cool as it oozed along his knuckles. He turned his hands to see how light and shadow affected the color. It fascinated him almost as much as how the blood got there.

The calico cat lay on the hardwood floor at the foot of his bed. It was a good animal, keeping quiet while Caden experimented.

He was alone, sitting quietly in his room. No, that’s not right.

He hadn’t lived in a room like that for a long time. Come to think of it, he hadn’t thought of his mother in nearly as much time. How long had it been? Not long, or the blood would have dried and flaked away. So why was it so strange to be in his room?

He looked around. Everything seemed in order, except for the blood of course. His bed was neatly made. He could see his scrawny reflection in the polished dark walnut foot-board of his bed. There wasn’t a speck of dust on his small wooden desk. His dresser, also a polished dark walnut, was organized, and the brass nobs of each drawer gleamed even in the soft yellow light of the tall floor lamp in the corner. Mother hated filth and punished it harshly, so Caden kept his room as immaculate as possible. It would take a ton of effort to clean the blood, but feeling it was worth it. He wanted to breathe in its coppery scent a few moments more.

A strange part of Caden remembered breaking free of his mother. The same part that told him there was something wrong with his hands. It wasn’t the blood; it was the size of his hands that bothered Caden. They were a little small for a nine-year-old, but no one ever teased him for being small, not after the last boy had anyway.

He stared at his hands in wonder, watching the blood roll from his fingers, to his wrist and down his arms. I’m not nine!

The thought set off an alarm in his mind. He hadn’t been nine for decades. This wasn’t real. It couldn’t be real. He couldn’t be nine again. I almost died the last time!

The white door banged open. The brass door-stop buzzed for a few moments. The sound caused a chill to run up Caden’s spine. His mother always expected him to be in some sort of trouble. Of course, he usually was. This time was no different. He spun, tucking his hands behind his back. The blood began to soak into the back of his blue pullover pajama top.

Even though she had the correct size and shape of a woman, his mother was a monster at her core. She was a demon wearing a Career Fair and Charmer dress. The black dress was covered in small white polka dots and came down to her tiny ankles, exposing bare feet and neatly manicured toenails polished a vibrant red.

“What have you done now?” she asked stalking up to him. Her jet-black hair bounced in its ponytail as she stomped across the blue throw rug. How could such a small pair of feet sound so thunderous?

Caden’s shoulders were against the wall before he even realized he was backpedaling. “Nothing, I didn’t do anything wrong. I didn’t mean to get dirty!”

Her hands were cold iron vices that ripped his arms out from behind his back. She stared at his hands. Her nail polish and lipstick were the same loud red as that of her toenails. It always made her look wrong to Caden. A part of him knew this had already happened. Does that mean I won’t die this time? His heart raced. In memory, or at that moment, Caden had only known fear when his mother’s thin lips bent into a frown.

“You’re a wasted birth!” she said in her sharp, nasally voice. “A child I should have known better than to bring into this world.”

Her hand raised to his head, and a small whine escaped Caden’s lips as she used bony fingers to yank him toward her by his mop of red hair. He fought for a moment, but at that time, his mother was much stronger than he was. Fighting only caused him to fall screaming. She simply dragged him by his hair through his door and then down the hall. He slid from the smooth, pine-scented floor onto the white carpet of the hallway. His pajama bottoms rolled down, allowing the carpet to burn into him as he slid along its rough surface. Streaks of blood stained the white fibrous floor.

“I’ll clean you till the filth is gone, or you die from the cleansing.”

“No!” Caden shouted. “No! Mother!” He’d called her Mommy once. She rubbed his mouth with a Brillo pad until his lips bled. She didn’t like being called Mommy. “Mother, I’ll be good. I’ll be clean.”

“If you’d stay clean, you little demon, I wouldn’t have to do this,” she said. Tears ran down her cheeks, but this time, the tears didn’t streak her dark mascara the way they usually did. She wasn’t crying for him. She cried because she had to deal with him.

Caden kicked. He cried out. He held on to everything he could as his mother dragged him, rolling and bumping down the hall. He managed to get a solid grip on a door jamb. She yanked until a handful of fiery hair ripped free. He ignored it. That would be the least of his worries. He had just managed to scramble to his feet when his mother grabbed him by his neck, her long fingernails digging into his flesh. That was far worse. She didn’t concern herself with his choked pleas.

He tried to beg as she pulled him into the blindingly sterile, eggshell-white tiled bathroom. The red-enameled bathtub seemed all the brighter at the center of all that white. The tub’s spotless exterior gleamed beneath the bathroom’s bright lights. He tried to apologize. It never worked, but what could someone do when faced with something stronger than he was? He begged, but it never helped. The part of him who knew this was a memory hated himself for begging.

Just because you did it then doesn’t mean you have to this time! His own voice was a sneer in his mind. However, the part of him that was nine took over as his mother pinned his bony shoulders onto the copper-lined tub. He felt the rubber plug dig into the back of his neck. The water was cool for a few moments. Then it got warm. Then it was hot, so very hot. He jolted up to escape it and smacked his forehead into the spout. A red haze clouded his view of her from the water. His mother turned on the cold water eventually, but not because of his crying. She didn’t want to burn her hands. It was a good thing she didn’t have her gloves handy.

“Mother!” he yelped, dizzy and choking. “Mother, I’m grown now. I’m not dirty.”

She pressed him under the water. Bubbles of precious air floated to the surface. He fought. His lungs wanted to burst. He gripped the edge of the red, oval tub so tightly it felt like his knuckles would break, but she held him down. He gasped and got a lung full of water for his effort.

“Mo…” he gasped. He managed to poke his head above water for a moment. Talking was meaningless now. She meant to kill him. Getting as much air in his lungs as possible was all that mattered. Even knowing that, he couldn’t get enough air.

He kicked and thrashed. He was very careful not to hit her. He’d done that once, and never thought to do it again. Mother liked getting hit less than she liked being called Mommy. He tried to knock the plug loose. He tried to slip away from her grip. He caught another gulp of air when he rolled to his side, but his mother’s long nails left a nasty scratch on his neck. That was okay in his mind. He’d take a thousand scars for a single breath of air.

She gripped his face with the palm of her hand and plunged him down into the water. Panic surged as his lungs gave up. Black specks floated along his vision until his eyes rolled into the back of his head. He was going to die. I didn’t die! I didn’t! This isn’t right!

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“Mother!” Caden sat up screaming. A dim part of his mind wanted to look around, but he focused on taking deep, slow breaths. He felt like he had just been drowning. He was covered in sweat. His breathing slowed after a moment, but he couldn’t make himself recall what he had just been dreaming about.

I must have gone away, he told himself. Sometimes, his mind left his body. He knew he’d gone away to someplace bad. He could hardly remember where. He hated the dreams. Dreams were where he was not himself, and nightmares wore his face. I hate it when I go somewhere without telling myself to.  

He looked at his arms and hands. For some reason, he was afraid he’d turned back into a small child. But his wrinkled hands were as old and warped as they were supposed to be. His face felt as weathered as it had when he went to bed. Something tugged at his mind as his fingers grated along the rough stubble of hair atop his head. Did I shave my head? When did I do that?  Why did I do that? Whatever the dream was, it must have been terrible, but it was over. Then he looked around.

His small cot was the only piece of actual furniture in the tiny room. A few machines made a cacophony. He followed a plastic tube from a bag of clear liquid to his arm. He felt his heart thunder in his chest. There’s a needle in me!

“I don’t belong here,” he whispered, trying to remain calm. He was in the hospital. He was where they told him his thoughts were wrong and his eyes saw only lies. Just as he moved to get out, to run away, the white door banged open.

Three men in police or correctional officer uniforms entered on the heels of the door as it slammed against the wall. The light streaming in through the doorway behind them cast their faces in deep shadows, yet he could make out a bronze badge on the left breast of their dark-blue uniforms. Polished ebony shoes clicked on the black-and-white checkerboard tile floor as they swept toward him.

“I’m not supposed to be here,” he told the officers. I got out!

The three men said nothing. He kicked one away, only to receive a punch in the face from one of the others. The third gripped his arm. His partners held him down as the cop with Caden’s arm ripped off the paper-thin gray blanket and slapped cold handcuffs around Caden’s wrist.

“You can’t do this to me,” Caden shouted. “They told me I wouldn’t have to sleep if I didn’t want to! They said I’d get better!”

Caden wasn’t sure if they couldn’t hear him or if they were simply ignoring him. With their faces masked in shadows, it was impossible to tell. As two of them continued to cuff Caden to the bed, the third pulled out a thin, rectangular, brown box.

“No!” Caden shouted. He pulled so hard at his bonds he felt the metal cuffs rip open flesh. He squirmed, careless about what parts of his naked old body may be revealed with him kicking about. “You can’t do this. You can’t kill me.”

Reality was no friend to Caden. He lived most of his life trying to remake the world, but nothing about what happened to him made sense. He had to be dreaming. He’d never told anyone how terrified he was that men with needles would come to kill him.

As if reading his mind, the officer with the box opened it to reveal three long-needled syringes. “Please,” Caden whimpered. He immediately hated himself. He hadn’t begged since he was a child, back when his mother—he hadn’t thought of his mother in more than half a century. The vague feeling of being held under water only stoked the flames of his fear. His whimpers turned into screams.

Slowly, the men passed syringes to each other. One needle grazed Caden’s eyelashes as it passed from one officer’s hand to the next. Caden pressed himself into the thin mattress to get some distance. Neither threats nor pleas for mercy had any affect on the attackers. They pushed the needles into his arms. Caden’s heart raced so quickly his chest hurt. He hoped he would pass out before they injected him. The burn of the poison flowing into him seemed to mock even that silent prayer for mercy.

This can’t be the real, real, Caden thought to himself. He wasn’t supposed to be at the hospital anymore. He wasn’t supposed to be dying. He faded, wondering if the dead had nightmares. He really hated going away.

 

Book Review: The Horned Gate by Jenn Moss

Book Review: The Horned Gate by Jenn Moss
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I’ve been following Jenn’s Blog for about as long as I’ve had a blog myself. So once I had some room on my TBR, I decided to give her work a read.

Spolier Free Summary: The Horned Gate is about a man named Jake who must use his ability to walk through dreams to help a friend trapped in a nightmare. That seems like a very short summary, but the plot is fairly interconnected, and any other information may spoil something for the reader.

Character:  Jake is the main character. The other characters we see plenty of are Conner, Lev, Gus, Tara, and Shay. The book is in first-person narrative though, so we really only see Jake’s point of view. Jake is strong enough to hold up that sort of narrative. He’s proactive and sympathetic.  The strength in this book is that Jake is a father trying to prove he’s a good father. I’ll be honest here and tell you that holds a lot of resonance with me. One reason why I connect so well to Jake is I have my own sorted history with my biological father, and this book struck that chord. I think my biggest issue with this book is that the relationship Jake has with another character relies on “off camera” information. It’s hard to buy into the relationship (especially the strength of that connection) because the reader never saw it develop. It’s something I noticed, and it’s honestly something that bothered me. However, it didn’t detract from Jake’s compelling character and the conflicts he faces. Also, some of the characters are very accepting of circumstances without much conflict or debate. This might be a problem for some to suspend disbelief. It wasn’t enough to turn me away from the book though.

Speaking of first-person. There’s a lot of inner monologue and questioning that I’m not familiar with. I noticed it, and I don’t know that it was completely necessary. The inner monologue isn’t internal dialogue, but rather the thought process of the character. I didn’t mind, as I feel it was done to make the reader feel they were in Jake’s head even as he experienced the moments in the book, but I’m not sure I’ve seen the technique a lot. DISCLAIMER: I don’t read a ton of first person. This might be something everyone does, and I’m just so unfamiliar with that type of narrative I don’t know.

Exposition: I usually say any time I can’t remember exposition is good balance. I remember a few moments of backstory tucked where they were at least logical, but there weren’t that many, and, again, they were at least logically placed.

jenn-mossWorldbuilding:  This is the strongest area. The magic system isn’t overly complex, but it is well thought out. The world and magic interact together in a way that’s believable. Moss uses a mentor archetype to teach the magic system to the reader. It’s a common tool, as I’ve mentioned, but it’s done well and there’s a few new angles Moss takes to give it a bit of a fresher look.

Dialogue:  This is, in my opinion, the weakest area of the book. That’s a good thing considering the quality of the story. The reason it’s a weak area for the book is it’s inconsistent.  There are areas I feel are forced, this is usually in regard to the relationship I mentioned above, but the conversation between Jake and Tara at the end is powerful. Dialogue is tricky. I think it’s an area I could improve in to some degree (I think I overuse the “wit” now and then).  I wouldn’t go so far as to say there are “bad” segments, just some that are so much stronger than others.

Description: One thing I noticed in this book is something actor Anthony Stewart Head talked about once while working on Buffy the Vampire Slayer. He said something to the effect that no one just stands and talks. He got around this by routinely cleaning his glasses on camera, just to give himself something to do while speaking. Moss does this. I didn’t go back and log every conversation, but she did a nice job of avoiding talking heads. Her settings are more visual than anything else. The other senses aren’t activated a ton, but it’s more than enough for me. Again, I’ll freely confess this isn’t an area I care about at all as a reader.

Overall: This book is powerful because of it’s character and the conflicts he faces. A man has to do right by his family and an old friend who’s misguided (he said nimbly avoiding a spoiler). That sort of story alone is worth a read. It has a fast pace with a magic system that is easy to understand without being too simple. I won’t say it’s as good as, but this book reminded me of early Dresden. The tone, and development are the areas I think are most comparable. I don’t know that readers of Dresden will like this book (Dresden, especially early Dresden, is more mystery than thriller).  But if you’re like me, and you read to learn about the craft of writing, there is some similarity in style. This sort of book would be great for one of those flights home for Christmas. It’s a quick, pleasant read with charming characters.

Thanks for reading

Matt